Prompt: As the semester is ending, do you find yourself more able than you were in September to identify yourself as a reflective, competent and caring teacher? What evidence do you see of these qualities as they are present and growing in you?
Now that the semester is ending and my time in the classroom for student teaching has come to a close, I am enjoying (as I said in my previous post) having more time to reflect on that experience and to intentionally think ahead about what I want my educational life post-Houghton to look like. I do believe that I am more able to identify myself as a reflective, competent, and caring teacher now. In September, I knew roughly what putting those attributes into practice would look like, but I wasn’t exactly sure how it would look for me personally. I think that now, I can better identify myself in these ways, but I am definitely still growing and learning.
I can see that I am a reflective teacher through the many times that I made mistakes this semester and also in the many times that I found success in some of my teaching practices. I was able to think about my lessons objectively and write down what went well and what did not go so well and continue doing the things that were going well and change the things that were not going so well. I find myself to be a meaningful reflective teacher because I was able to effectively change what did not go so well for my future lessons. I learned that reflection is important to try to teach my students, too. I tried to teach them how to go back and look at their work and see if they had done their best work or if there was more that they could do.
During student teaching, I was in a bilingual classroom. Before student teaching even started, I had asked to be put into a bilingual class because I wanted to see how it worked in the city of Buffalo and wanted a chance to practice my Spanish with native Spanish speakers. In my classroom, all of the instruction is delivered in Spanish with the exception of an hour of ESL at the end of the day (taught by another teacher) and thus, needless to say, I definitely had a chance to practice my Spanish! I think that this is the area in which I can see myself as a competent teacher the most. I was able to look up definitions and phrases and vocabulary for all of things I know how to say in English, in Spanish. I was also competent in the ways that I sought to connect with my students, all of whom were Puerto Rican, and shared a different culture than my own. I felt competent in being able to navigate the testing and the curriculum and being able to find ways to make content meaningful and interesting and engaging for my students, especially in the teaching of my unit.
Many of my students in my classroom were facing very rough situations at home this fall. I had a student who was living in a shelter, one who was moving away soon due to a Mom’s urgent surgery, one whose father is in jail, and the list continues. Upon getting to know my students and finding out these things about them, I found that it reminded me to be even more of a caring teacher than I felt like I was previously. I took after my teacher’s example of giving out food for the weekends and giving some students extra snacks and taking time in the mornings to check in with my students and see how they are doing. I also collaborated with my students who were in particularly difficult situations in terms of getting assignments done since they needed a little bit of a grace period. The behavior of my students was challenging, at best, and I think I needed to remember that they behave the way they do for a reason, and in trying to figure that out, I believe I demonstrated being a caring teacher.
I have in no way suceeded at being reflective, competent, or caring. I have a long way to go. I am too often quick to jump to conclusions without properly reflecting on the whole situation, highly incompetent and needing of much time to learn skills and information, and oftentimes selfish and impatient instead of being caring. I am thankful that I can pray and trust that God will continue to make me more like Himself and that He gives grace abundantly when I fail.